wait...but...i dont...understand

something hilarious happened the last week of classes that i had forgotten about until today. class had just ended, and some students near me were packing up and talking about finals. i mentioned how worthless our family law class had been all semester (wow, terrible class and a very overrated professor), when one girl said that it would at least be useful since family law is on the bar. it was at that point that i told her i'm not taking the bar. then we all had a good laugh. but then i straightened up and told her i was completely serious.

well, you should have seen the look on this girl's face. in a matter of seconds, i could visibly see her entire world come crashing down upon her in an explosion of confusion, panic, and internal hysteria. she asked, "what?" in utter disbelief. "yeah, that's right." i calmly responded then walked out of the room.

it amazes me that so many law students--people trained to think critically, ponder alternatives, and analyze the entire situation--have this one track mind. go to school, take the bar, practice law.

sure, i once thought this way too. i planned on practicing law. but then saw what it was about, tested the law firm life, and i aborted that plan faster than most can even get their dry cleaning off the hanger. i think it's hilarious to see peoples' reactions when i tell them this. they get confused, then they fire the typical questions off at me (why not, what about student loans, then why did you come to law school, etc), then, and it takes a careful eye to see it, they have a moment of insane jealousy. because let's face it, some of these people have discovered what i have, that it's not for them, but they are too weak to counter the pressures of the system. some have realized that there's probably something else they'd rather do instead. and some are probably just confused/angered by the fact that i couldn't give a shit about making a lot of money or holding a presitious title, or anything as long as i'm happy.

and what would make me happy? well, the stuff that i'm going to do. i dont have a job lined up and i dont even know what state i'll be living in next year. but i'm very excited, and there's something to be said for that. something big.