fucking cunt footnote

after dominique got home from seeing her friend last night, she mentioned that she had talked to her friend about the whole situation with this lady, let's call her sue. anyway, the friend told dominique that she told sue that i never received any call offering me the job. well sue told the friend that she went to england and told some other guy at the recruiting firm to call me and offer me the job. according to sue, he told her that he tried calling me multiple times, left messages, and that i never called back. also according to sue, that guy is "in trouble" about it or something.

maybe it's my universal skepticism, but to me this sounds like a ton of bullshit. everyone placing blame on each other until the whole situation just fizzles away and is forgotten. i don't know what it matters, since they'll probably never see me again. so i don't know why she needs to tell dominique's friend it wasn't her fault when it was. maybe to look good to the friend? or so i won't think less of her? well, i do.

maybe it is the truth. maybe this guy was left in charge of things. still, if she wanted to hire me it doesn't make a ton of sense that she'd just ignore it. especially since the guy said i didn't respond, not that i rejected the offer. maybe she wrote down the wrong number for him. maybe he called the wrong number. maybe he didn't call at all. but sue was my first point of contact the whole time, so there's reason to be skeptical.

it also doesn't make sense that i'd turn the job down. sue was kind of a friend of a friend of dominique, and she knew both thru me and thru the friend who knew her that i was pretty set on that job, especially with nothing else on the horizon and a fairly worthless legal education. i told her multiple times how interested i was in the job (of course i meant in having the job, not in the job itself, a big difference that i didn't bother explaining to sue, however). she talked candidly about what the job was and how she understood if i didn't want to do it. i insisted i did. and i did want the job, because i wanted a job. but anything i got i would've given some time to see if i really liked it. i wasn't about to jump ship to another job immediately. i wasn't even about to apply to other jobs immediately had i gotten that one.

what it boils down to is that she either did or did not leave it in this other guy's hands. sue was a bit flaky, but even she should've had enough sense to know that something was up when the guy told her i never answered or called back. if he even told her that. it just doesn't all add up. the funny part is that it doesn't bother me because that was some ideal job i wanted. i might not have even liked it. i almost surely wouldn't have liked the job, and the atmosphere of the office, as much as i like the job i have now. what bothers me is the lack of responsibility taken on the part of sue and/or the other guy. it might not bother me so much if i didn't work with people all day everyday at my current job as well, where i repetitively see people denying responsibility when it's really quite clear. people are really fucked up.