legally fucked

lately i've become frustrated. it actually has nothing to do with finals. or i should say, i'm not frustrated because of finals. i actually have only been a little stressed about them once so far, and that was after 4 of 6. so that's not bad.

i'm frustrated because i'm still among the ranks of the unemployed. i dont have a job for this summer. it's getting to me for several reasons.

first, my school's career services is fucking useless unless i want to work in pennsylvania. and if you think that's what i want, then you've either never read this blog, or you're a fucking retard. i've bitched about my school plenty in the past, so you can just add this to the list of why it sucks. no i dont want to work in philthy, no i dont want to work in shittsburgh, and i sure as fuck dont want to be anywhere in between. that being the case, career services is as useful to me as a driver's license is to a quadraplegic.

also, i work harder than lots of the people i go to school with. i do more of the readings, and do them more carefully. yes, i go out occasionally, but i also go to school with a lot of fucking douchebags (again, read the blog) which provides incentive to avoid personal contact. i love going out with friends from home and college, however people here dont come close to comparing. if they did, i'm sure i'd be out at the bar a hell of a lot more.

i also realize that doing well in law school has very little correlation with how good a lawyer someone will be. but i think a work ethic should count for something. it seems people these days are more concerned with who will shut the shades and suck their dicks, and thats just not me. it's hilarious when bright-eyed 1Ls enter school with ridiculous notions of law being some superior and prestigious profession.

i'm thru 4 exams and i still have 2 to go. but whats my incentive? there's no proof that any of the last 2 years of my life which i have wasted is paying off, so why should i give a fuck? how do i get myself to concentrate for 1 more week on stupid shit i dont care about?

i could've been going into my third year as an unemployed philosopher this summer. what the fuck did i do to myself.